Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Progression
South of Nowhere
I’m south of nowhere
I’m already on top
I don’t have to go up any higher
And I need nothing more than I’ve already got
I’m in the midst of somewhere
Where this kind of life never ends
There’ll be no definite ending
And I don’t even know how it all began
I’m in the flow with anyone
That’s ready to get down
Who can handle what I’ve got
And is willing to stick around
And nothing can get better than this
Life's like God's sweetest kiss
Gone around the block and know that I'm blessed
Finally gotten out of all of that mess
And this is how it's gonna stay
And I like my life that way
I'm south of nowhere, baby
I'm south of nowhere, baby
I’m so full of everything
And sometimes I release it all
It’s not healthy to keep it bottled up
‘Cause you’ll be heavier when you fall
I’m south of nowhere
And fine where I’m at
I’ve got everything I need
And nothing can beat that
Self Esteem
Self Esteem
That’s what she needs
Because she looks in the mirror
And just wants to scream
She picks apart herself
Finding nonexistent flaws
And sinking deeper into her self hatred
Until at last she falls
Damn that mirror
It only shows a fragment of the truth
No stupid piece of glass
Depicts what’s inside of you
She’s a beautiful person
And a mirror isn’t needed to see it
If there was just only some way
I could make her believe it
She quietly sings
a sorrowful song
Pointing out everything
She thinks that is wrong (that she thinks is wrong?)
She has it hammered
And drilled boldly into her head
That she is imperfect
So at night she cries in her bed
She’s a truly blessed person
On the inside and on the out
And I can’t stand that she’s oblvious
Lost in her world of personal doubt
If only I could alter her self-interpretation
And convince her that she needs no altercations (is in need of no)
She’s perfect the way she is
And I wish she could see it
If there was just some way
I could make her believe it
She is too good, too wonderful
To be thinking like that
And it kills me every time
Low confidence can be the downfall
To such an amazing being
All because she (only) concentrates
On the things she thinks she sees
She has it all
I look at her and see it
If there was just some way
I could make her believe it
Your Busy Road
If I screw myself over then you'll screw yourself, too
It's what all the other people without love seem to do
And you'll do it without any shame
'Cause to feel good, you've got no other way
And you think you can get away
With taking all of your pain
And then dumping it on me
And I’ll take it willingly
Without a single complaint
And showcase my sacrifice for none to see
Well, it's true - you've been acquitted
And I give up - I've quitted
I'll just lay in the middle of your busy road
Just do what you want
And I'll do it, too
I'll ignore everything I've ever been told
They say I make no sense
That all my sanity's already been spent
But there's really no need for any clarity
When all that has to be understood is this:
None of your shots have missed
one plus one's two, then two plus two's four
and there's nothing more that I'd adore
than to not have to go through this anymore
step back a bit and settle the score
but oh my! that's certainly a lie
I won't even attempt to deny
I like this pain and I don't know why
it's what you do to me and you don't even try
it's not so bad, but it's not so right
i wonder about it each and every night
if I should get into you or listen to them
either way I go, I'm not gonna win
'cause one way leads to cravings
and the other to misbehavings
it's either safe but screwed
or screwed but happy
They say I make no sense
That all my sanity's already been spent
But there's really no need for any clarity
When all that has to be understood is this:
None of your shots have missed
Well, I've come to a consensus
Yeah I said it and meant it
I know what I have to do
Listen up, and I'll go and tell you
Well, your permission's granted 'cause I know where my heart lies
And it's completely true 'cause the heart never lies
I'll just take what might hit and go with the flow
Yes, I'll lay in the middle of your busy road
Hot Christmas (Your Kiss)
Disclaimer: This song is meant in the context of marriage
But it's gettin' hot in here - why don't we take a spicy sleigh ride?
Baby, baby, the seasons' all about giving
So give it to me, baby - let's make this life worth living
The smell of holly's gettin' me a little more than just jolly
Gingerbread must be an aphrodisiac
And when it comes to unwrapping presents, I don't want to unwrap a dolly
It's you I wanna unwrap once you're packed (sorry, that is such a horrible line lol)
So what do you say? Let's get the grove in Christmas bacccck.
Chorus
I just want to have your kiss
Fulfill my sultry holiday wish
So bring out the mistletoe this Christmas
Throw out all inhibitions and just do this
Let's snog!
In the mood from sippin' eggnog
Just make out!
Gettin' hotter than Rudolph's snout
I just want your kiss. Just gimme your kiss.
Baby, baby, you're shining just like a sprightly elf
Uh huh.
So baby, take your lovin' off the shelf
Oh yeah.
Turn off those colored lights and put on some slow music
I'll jingle your bells, and you'll deck my halls - let's do it (hahahahahaha)
Now I ain't talkin' about sex - I just want a little tongue OR hey baby, we're married so this sure ain't wrong
The feeling I get with you, it's just like sleigh bells have rung
So move a little closer - I'll be your substitution for the fire
Let's just give into our yuletide desires
You're the only thing I want this year
So let's go all night like one of Santa's reindeer
Repeat chorus.
What You Gonna Do
Well, I don’t really care
But I live and all you do is stare
Am I really that hot? (you know, girl)
Or do you think I grow pot? (Mary Jane!)
Look at me - still not caring
I’ll do what I like - yeah, I’m daring
But all you throwing at me is haterade and criticism
I’m about to go Jewish and give your face a circumcism
‘Cause, man, I never did nothing to you
Yeah, I wil’ out, but I keep it strictly with my crew
Just minding my own business
Listen up, ‘cause I don’t want you to miss this
Okay, yeah, I might step out a line
But it’s all worth it, man, ‘cause I’m having one gonch of a time
You try so hard to really get me down
But I’m not trying at all and look at me now
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna think it
I’m out, y’all - can’t keep my mouth shut
And you can’t keep yours shut
muttering on about stupid stuff
Like how already sick of me
Well, I’m sick of you giving me grief
Just save it for the funeral, please
Think I can’t see past your so-called subtleties?
Every single thing you do is a personal attack against me
Hey - not my fault that my life’s going smoother than yours
I keep it chaste and you’re living it up as a whore (yeah, I went there!)
I’ve managed to fly though you wanna drag me down
If I’m the grade A beef then you’re just a dairy cow
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it.
Repeat.
Slow it down dramatically and mystically.
You keep on shooting shots but they won’t hit at all
You protest - but I still proudly yell out my call
Your hating gets old, Why don’t you drop it, doll?
You can keep on trying but I’m gonna keep on standing tall
Well, I don’t really care
But I live and all you do is stare
Am I really that hot? (you know, girl)
Or do you think I grow pot? (Mary Jane!)
Look at me - still not caring
I’ll do what I like - yeah, I’m daring
Just minding my own business
Listen up, ‘cause I don’t want you to miss this
Okay, yeah, I might step out a line
But it’s all worth it, man, ‘cause I’m having one gonch of a time
You try so hard to really get me down
But I’m not trying at all and look at me now
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna think it
I can’t keep my mouth shut
And you can’t keep yours shut
muttering on about stupid stuff
Well, just shut the gonch up
Say you’re already sick of me
Well, I’m sick of you trying to have beef
Think I can’t see past your so-called subtleties?
Every single thing you do is a personal attack against me
I’m gonna ahead and shut this door
‘Cause I can’t deal with you no more
Just hatin’ ‘cause I do my life flyer than yours
You livin’ like some ol’ bore
I’ve managed to fly though you wanna drag me down
If I’m the grade A beef then you’re just a stupid ol’ dairy cow
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it
What you gonna do about me now?
What you gonna think about me now?
I’m gonna do it.
Repeat.
Slow it down dramatically and mystically.
You keep on shooting shots but they won’t hit at all
You protest - but I still proudly yell out my call
Your hating gets old, Why don’t you drop it, doll?
You can get short all you want but I’m gonna keep on standing tall
Untitled from 09/2009
We want the same thing
Guess our kind of minds do think alike
But it’s you who gets the prize
Because he was never mine
Can’t say I’ll love him better
So instead I get to love him, bitter
Two years running - you’re still the winner
Better one of us than none of us?
My pathetic attempt at self-consolation
But no - take the boy, I’ll take the tears
And I’ll take my peace, you take the fears
Fears of the heart broken again
We both know how he is
We know how nicely it begins
And how horribly it always ends
And maybe I’ll forever be stuck as the friend